Not many embark on the adventure I'm on. I can honestly say this is the bravest thing I've done and I'm grateful I came. That being said, my contract is six months old and therefore I have less than six months to make a decision on staying or not. My buddy Brandon went on to find a great job at another uni and is a hell of job. I'm thinking of applying to get on there if I can, maybe apply at a couple other jobs and if I can make better money and more vacation I'm going to probably take it. I do miss home often and miss friends and think of possible missed opportunities, I met cool people shortly before coming here and I wish I could have explored those relationships more, but fate intervened.
Staying here is always on my mind and everyone home is still talking about how wretched the job market is so it makes me think I should probably just stay here and pay off some debt for a little while longer. But then I see guys that have really dug their feet in the ground here, bought cars, homes, and even married korean women. This weekend was spendt in Seoul at a kickboxing tournament with Mathew, Dan, and Paul. Paul has been here nearly for over five years and is very settled. He's got it in my head now that I need to buy a cheap bike to help me explore more. And I want to, I'm sick of going to the same foreigner bar every Friday night, I want new places and new experiences. After being here for six months you start to become more involved in people's lives in the foreign community which sounds great and can be, but some relationships have changed for the worse. I think I just really need to remember that no situation is perfect and even if I went home I would have blue days. Frankly I should probably just quit my complaining and make the most of my situation and put a smile on my face, after all I do love my job and I don't have to worry about money right now which is a first.
Its weird though, I never thought I would miss America as a country, but I do. I love my country, talk as much trash as you want whether you're American or not but its a great place in comparison to other parts of the world. Nothing is set in stone here, I could very well be living back home in six months, time will tell. Some of the best advice I ever got was from my father, he said, 'if you're not happy, then why are you doing it?', I think about the simplicity of that philosophy and try to apply it in any situation where I feel unsatisfied. I know what I need to know, I only need to decide what will make me the happiest. Just because I might have to go home and live a little tighter financial I could still be happier, eh who the hell knows, for now its bed time in Iksan, South Korea. Good Night Moon.....
Staying here is always on my mind and everyone home is still talking about how wretched the job market is so it makes me think I should probably just stay here and pay off some debt for a little while longer. But then I see guys that have really dug their feet in the ground here, bought cars, homes, and even married korean women. This weekend was spendt in Seoul at a kickboxing tournament with Mathew, Dan, and Paul. Paul has been here nearly for over five years and is very settled. He's got it in my head now that I need to buy a cheap bike to help me explore more. And I want to, I'm sick of going to the same foreigner bar every Friday night, I want new places and new experiences. After being here for six months you start to become more involved in people's lives in the foreign community which sounds great and can be, but some relationships have changed for the worse. I think I just really need to remember that no situation is perfect and even if I went home I would have blue days. Frankly I should probably just quit my complaining and make the most of my situation and put a smile on my face, after all I do love my job and I don't have to worry about money right now which is a first.
Its weird though, I never thought I would miss America as a country, but I do. I love my country, talk as much trash as you want whether you're American or not but its a great place in comparison to other parts of the world. Nothing is set in stone here, I could very well be living back home in six months, time will tell. Some of the best advice I ever got was from my father, he said, 'if you're not happy, then why are you doing it?', I think about the simplicity of that philosophy and try to apply it in any situation where I feel unsatisfied. I know what I need to know, I only need to decide what will make me the happiest. Just because I might have to go home and live a little tighter financial I could still be happier, eh who the hell knows, for now its bed time in Iksan, South Korea. Good Night Moon.....
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